College 2.0

Should I go back to college? Or not?

That is the question

What do I want to get out of this?

Is it going to really help me?

Should I get a job now?

I never went to a university and got to experience the real college life and now I feel so old going back.

I was so afraid of going far from home back when I first went to college in 2010. I hadn’t even decided on a major yet and now I know more about life than anything I ever got out of a college class.

I’m almost 25 and still have no job after graduating at 22 (went to a two year college for an associate’s). The path to a great life is becoming more and more straight and narrow. If I want to have those memories everlasting, I’ll have to get out and actually meet people. Of course, I have passions and talents already developing where I sit, so what is the point in trying to learn more things and taking all of those useless classes when I can easily (well, not that easy) make money doing what I love now. There are opportunities for photographers and I just have to go for them. There are ways of making money on YouTube if I really dedicate myself to the platform.

I just have to make a decision on what is best for me. Going through another round of panic inducing anxiety is not needed.


Get An Edge

Gaming is really only a profession when you can make a substantial amount of money off of it, otherwise it is something anyone can do when they are a) bored or b) when they want to prove to their friends that they can beat that difficult level. It’s actually quite silly to me that anyone could make money off of playing video games but that is the world we live in now. In the professional gaming world, being a thrilling commentator is the key to success. You have to entertain the audience, engage with them, keep them interested in your content. And with there being thousands of YouTube gaming channels out there, it is getting more and more important to have an edge, something that sets you apart from the rest, because the majority of these gamers are cookie cutter trend followers.

My gaming channel was originally named MacEdgeGamer before I simply called it Macbofisbil because I wanted to include other kinds of content besides just gameplays and it fit with my brand better. Yeah, I’m not currently on any sort of radar with this channel but I can at least know that it is following a theme this time, unlike my other channels which were all over the place in terms of content and quality. There is at least hope and not a steaming pile of rubbish.

Speaking of other edges, here is a picture of a carnation filled table I took today, from the end of the table.

The Table's Edge

One Word Prompt: Edge

The Pace of Relevancy

Like this car, we all keep moving forward into the future

It’s really hard to stay relevant these days, with the world moving so fast. Technology keeps advancing at an alarming rate. The Internet continues to grow and dominate discussion. Anything that was popular a year ago has already gone past people’s minds. If you want to stay on top, you have to keep working, or else you fade into the past. I was born in the 90s and any remnant of those days probably resides in the darkest corners of the world or up in attics collecting dust.

I wish I could slow it all down and have time to enjoy the things that are popular right now, instead of having to move on to the “Next Best Thing”. I’m usually one of the last to pick up something new and exciting because I don’t easily give into hype. By the time I hop on the popular bandwagon, the thing that was cool and trendworthy has already lost its luster or changed into something completely different. I haven’t even laid my hands on an iPhone – ever – and it’s going to celebrate its 10th anniversary next year.

I’ve recently been using the Wayback Machine to take a look at the way popular websites have grown and changed over the years and it’s quite interesting. Webpages from the early 2000s look so outdated and unprofessional with no uniformity or branding at all. I was looking at YouTube and saw that it started out as a simple place to upload and watch videos and then eventually developed into this immersive experience. The video player that is the focal point of the website has changed. It used to be this square box centered on the page with a jumble of sharing options and other buttons underneath – very messy and cluttered – and now it’s this beautiful widescreen rectangle siting snugly against the left side of the screen with no clutter at all. They’ve changed their layout a number of times, going with some that people loved to others that were totally disliked. I also took a look at some individual channels (like Smosh and PewDiePie) and how they started out from humble beginnings and have continued to please their fans today.

The pace of relevancy all depends on how people grow and change over time. How interests evolve. If a product or person doesn’t keep up with the times and how people change, it or they will won’t survive. With the “Yeah!” or “Nay” response getting even more clear and quicker, you have to really try hard to make something that is appealing to a wide audience.

Pace Oddity

If you could slow down an action that usually zooms by, or speed up an event that Nnormally drags on, which would you choose, and why?

Chasing A Dream

If you’re like most of us, you need to earn money by working for a living. Describe your ultimate job. If you’re in your dream job, tell us all about it — what is it that you love? What fulfills you? If you’re not in your dream job, describe for us what your ultimate job would be.

My ultimate job would be making videos on YouTube and earning money off of them, enough to make a good living. I have been making videos for sometime now (since 2009 when I was in my senior year) but have never made any significant amount of cash, about a dollar most likely, and have never gotten into any sort of rhythm, It has always been a passion of mine but I never really harnessed it. The thrill of putting a video together in my editing software (currently Corel VideoStudio X8) is intoxicating. I get into a creative zone and end up blocking everything and everyone else out. There are always new ideas for me to explore, even if previous ones did nothing with my viewers. My skills keep on improving each time. Before I started this blog, I was really into making videos but now that this is a priority, I can’t spend too much time on them.

YouTube just turned 11 years old yesterday and the site just keep on growing exponentially. There’s no telling where it will be in the next four years, when the 15th anniversary is held, but I boldly predict that it will be on the level of television eventually. I don’t always watch videos on YouTube but when I do…I end up spending an entire night going on an epic video journey (he is the Most Interesting Man In the World).

I’m not saying this will likely be all I do for a living because I’d definitely need another job to make enough money. I currently give plasma two times a week now, a tedious and annoying process, and being able to find something to replace it would be great.

Writing is definitely a passion of mine as well and I would love to get a full time job on some website writing articles, whatever topic they may be about. Writing (and reading) has a way of making me feel rather comfortable and content. It is a way to unwind from an eventful day or when I am stressed out. If I could somehow earn money from blogging (an even more difficult task than YouTube I suspect), I would really harness its full potential.

That quote I provided by Steve Jobs sums up my passion fairly well. I don’t want to spend my whole life trying to figure out what I want to be doing, wasting my time on something that is full of fruitless efforts. If Option A doesn’t pan out, then it be best to move to Option B, and perhaps C.

What Was I Thinking?

What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?

Watching old videos of myself on YouTube, especially from my long lost first channel (I forgot the password), is quite a hard thing. Most of those videos were really poorly done and of horrible camera and sound quality (the iPod nano days). I cringe when I see and hear my attempts at humor, the little mannerisms I did that I thought would make things more interesting but actually ended up being unnecessary. True, that many of those submissions will forever live in exile, never to be viewed by anyone and it would be quite shocking for one of my own videos to show up while doing a search.

I can easily record myself playing a game (how original…) and upload it to YouTube. The first time I watch the fresh upload is very great indeed, very entertaining (at least to myself). But if I return to that video about a week later, the embarrassment caused by seeing myself trying hard to be funny becomes apparent. And judging by the view count and occasionally the number of dislikes, I can see why the video would be unbearable to watch. There are videos on my relatively small gaming channel right now (I’m questioning why I even started it because I’m definitely not making it a priority) that I tried to watch again but just couldn’t bring myself to finish because of the atrocities that ensued. I’ve gotten quite better as time has gone on and insights have been taken into account and I can only assume that the best days are yet to come.


It’s Such A Perfect Day

Day 284 - Railroad Gaze
Will I fall onto the tracks as the train comes by?

Nothing is going to happen to me today. Seriously…the only thing that could hurt me is by choking on a piece of bread or something, or getting scratched up badly by the cat. I would have to walk almost a mile to reach the main road and then run out in front of some cars at the moment they are going to pass by me, which would be utter suicide. An absurd Final Destination moment would have to happen to put me in any danger.

In reality, the worst possible thing that could happen to me is getting stopped for shoplifting at the store, which I will be stopping by today. Or slipping on a wet floor when there is a Wet Floor sign nearby and cracking my head open. Or I could hit my thumb on the hammer that I will use today to pound in the bolt used to secure the porch railing. The Internet could go out before I had a chance to publish this post, ending my goal of post-a-day 2016 prematurely. Otherwise, I am relatively safe. I have no enemies and live in a relatively quiet community.

One of the best things that could could happen to me is getting a ton of views on my most recent YouTube video, uploaded today, and gain some much needed momentum. But from what has transpired as of late with the low numbers, I doubt it. It’s a highly competitive world out there. What I’m really looking forward to is how my new blog theme works out. I think the darker look suits me very well and hopefully I’ll stick with it for the year.

Probably the best thing that could happen to me today is getting lucky with the lottery and winning the jackpot – or any amount of money. I try to play the same numbers every time I play the Powerball but the problem is that I don’t always check my numbers and all the possible ways I could win. My numbers may have come up in the past when I didn’t buy a ticket. Even matching one white ball and one red ball number would have won me four dollars, which is basically getting my two dollars for the ticket back and two extra.

It’s going to be a great day with playoff football on TV. I’m looking forward to how the remaining teams battle it out on the field. There are no guarantees this year (except the Seahawks) and any number of matchups are possible. This is what makes the NFL playoffs better than the upstart college playoffs: teams aren’t picked by a computer and the best team over a three or four week period remains in the end. It doesn’t seem so anticlimactic either.

Of all the awful possibilities, what’s the worst possible thing that could happen to you today? Now, what about the best?

New York No Seller

If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

The title of my own personal memoir might be: The Man Who Tried To Fly Close to the Sun But Ended Up Getting Scared and Seeking Shelter in the Spaceship.

A book on my life? Oh, geez. I wonder where this one would end up – on the dollar tree shelf no doubt, getting overlooked along with all the other non-descript no names.

I’m going to read a book about me from cover to cover? Okay, that is a possibility, if I manage to get past the first few chapters and lots of dull parts and if I had a huge ego and was really into myself. Why does the Daily Prompt always give us these “you must” things? What would happen if I didn’t read the book all the way through? Is there a gun to my head? I digress – they are only trying to push us to become better writers and have to give us ultimatums.

You know you are a washed up celebrity when your book is worth $5 or less at the Family Dollar, like the book by Danica McKellar that I saw today and briefly went through – it was about math. She played Winnie on The Wonder Years and has basically done nothing since. Unlike her being a Hollywood actresss and having some claim to fame though, my life is as boring as a can of soup, hence the picture. I mean, you can try to spin it anyway you want, but at the end of the day it’s still me, my computer, and family. Which I have no problem with. I am still trying to accomplish something on YouTube and not having much luck, mainly because I am not as dedicated anymore and basically do half-ass work on videos. A few years ago in 2012, I was willing to get drunk on making videos, blogging not being a priority, and willing to make big strides to finally be successful but then I fell into the habit of not checking out how my videos were doing because I was basically scared of the reactions I would see after a few videos I published were overly ambitious and maybe offensive. That was a big mistake because then I lost sight of the goals I wanted to accomplish and the kinds of videos that people wanted to see. By relying on guesswork, I really sabotaged my potential and started to do poorly.

I remember many events from childhood and can, if I wanted to, vividly retell them but not everyone of them is worth telling. The time my leg was in a cast only brings up fragments and muffled screams of pain. I don’t remember tripping over the rocking horse but do recall blacking out and waking up about sometime later, maybe months afterward. Mom later recalled that I had some bones sticking out of my foot, which, as you would imagine, made me cringe in horror that something like that actually happened. Thank goodness I never actually saw that.

If there was a real purpose to writing a book about me, such as an impossible dream that I had accomplished or a tragedy that I had witnessed firsthand, the book would be more worth buying, but as I haven’t exactly had anything incredible happen or anything buzzworthy, it would be kind of lame, like just a bunch of random stories that don’t lead to any destination. Maybe if I become a successful blogger someday, a book would definitely be fitting. I would love to teach others about the secrets to successful blogging and making lots of money – though in this day and age, the importance of one of those books is not as high as before because of it being the age of YouTube and all. The average person wouldn’t know a really famous blogger on WordPress or Blogger unless they were actually a blogger themself, while on the other hand, one doesn’t have to be a full time, dedicated YouTuber or even use the site at all, to know that PewDiePie is the king and might forever always be with his subscriber count having no limits.

In Response to the Daily Prompt: This Is Your Life